I have always noticed my propensity to crack jokes in negatively charged emotional situations , and I believed that it was in an effort to neutralize the situation, but in recent years I have noticed that, more and more, I actively avoid any and all situations that cause even a moderate emotional response in me. I have always hated "chich-flicks" (not going to apologize for that, they suck) but I realized recently that it is not only the epic amount of suckage that so many of them possess, it's also because they make me incredibly uncomfortable, nearly ill. Not just the heartbreak and boo-fucking-hooing, but the mushy, happy love shit too. They make me equally uncomfortable, as uncomfortable as those god-damned Sarah McLaughlin (sp?) animal commercials that rip my fucking heart out and mash it into black goo. I get up and leave the room when they are on. Fuck that shit.
If I can't avoid the emotional shit I try and turn it into something I can handle, like jokes! I like jokes. Or anger, mine or others. I have been known to irritate other people enough to evoke an anger response in an effort to change the dynamic of the situation into something that I can more easily handle or understand.
(Now I can't stop thinking about those commercials ! They make me want to hunt down all the animal abusers and turn their fun bits into fucking confetti, evil fucking bastards.)
Is this a normal-ish type thing? I have always known that I was emotionally.....cold? Underdeveloped? Retarded? I don't know what, but now that I have noticed that it is not just sadness but all emotions that make me uncomfortable I am a little curious, and possibly concerned.
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