http://www.madinamerica.com/2012/02/...-mentally-ill/
I recently discovered that 2+ year old article and it's already started to change how I think about myself. I've always known that I'm an anti-authoritarian, and to a certain extent I always knew that I had a lot of interconnected issues because of it (survival mode anxiety, the exact same thing that he mentions in the article, etc), but it was never as confidently expressed in my own mind as it is in the article above. Part of me always believed that, at root, there was something neurological at fault - a "chemical imbalance" as people like to say, leading to the feeling that I'm flawed or damaged or dysfunctional in a way. I remember a member here (Resonance?) even saying that it was preferable to be medicated in order to not become a victim of natural selection or something like that, since society demanded it.
Fuck. This is absurd. Even writing and thinking about this right now has me feeling like my head is made of glass, like it could crack at any moment. It's empowering to frame things in a way that allows me to believe that nothing is wrong with me and that, in fact, there is something inherently necessary about me, not just in the sense of me being true to myself, but in my nature being a necessary component of a healthy community and society. I'd like to believe that a lot of societal ills are caused by people like me being oppressed and marginalized.
Fuck you I'm a super hero.![]()
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